Not When I'm Sober

Been thinking a lot about McMarried lately. I wrecked that so good.

But then I'm not sure it was all me. I had issues it's true. But I never left him. He left me. I understand the reasons. That's all good. But then why come back only to leave again?

The things I said, you'd hear them before. They never made you leave until you had little to gain from staying.

That's who I am. Don't try to socialize with me sober. Especially when there are feelings involved. Not good feelings of loss.

I told him to call me back when I'd had enough beers and I honestly thought he would. Cause I meant what I said. I always have. I'm not much of a girl like that.

I can't do it sober. With him or anyone else. All that pretending life is good.

But after enough beers I miss them. The people and all the moments they spawned. And I can love them still without having to lose all over again everything that's already been lost.